It is what it is.
Some people cannot stand that statement -
but I have found it very stabilizing in my life
It has helped me accept where I am at the moment.
For instance..
I don't think we realize just how much joy we find in food
until we can't eat a lot of it.
Please pardon me for a moment - as I regress into some
Eeyore type thinking.
I am normally quite happy to be Tigger.
I realize that in my life, at least for this season in my life,
I need to replace the joy that I find in food,
with more fulfilling and less painful things.
I had a doctor appointment today for a med check,
which was an hour and a half drive one way.
So I had a lot of time to think.
On the way back I was thinking about
what I was going to make for supper.
Some of you can just think -
what do I feel like eating tonight?
I don't have that luxury.
Since I am on Day 2 of this new lifestyle -
I was feeling a little irritated.
I have gone through this before though -
dealing with eating the way I need to.
I am not gluten free - I am flour free.
No flour.
No sugar.
No white potatoes or other nightshades
(which also rules out tomatoes and sauces with them).
No grains.
No dairy.
Very few raw veggies - and no leafy greens.
A limited amount of cooked veggies.
I have come to the conclusion, that along with
candida issues, and mold issues,
that the digestive issues I have are most like IBS.
So for me right now -
that also means
No Berries
No nuts.
I gave up coffee a month ago.
I also gave up Eggs.
(For now at least)
Most of you would have a HUGE array of foods to choose from
when doing the Whole 30.
There are some that you would miss at first -
but you would get used to it
and enjoy the
bounty of nature's food,
the way God intended it.
My goal is to be able to eat all those
beautiful
natural fruits and veggies
without pain.
To occasionally enjoy a special treat
without repercussions.
And I am willing to do this,
because I want some things more.
I want to make something
more beautiful.
I want to live out the rest of my life, healthy
and feel good about myself.
I want to fulfill my desire to work in the natural nutrition
field.
I want to have all the mental energy in the world,
so that I can be there for family and friends
and enjoy every minute.
I want to develop some programs for the chronically ill -
that will help them feel better and
regain some normalcy of life somewhere.
I want to feel SO much Joy in the rest of my life
that food is just a side thought.
So -
when I have days that I am wanting something I know I don't need
or I am feeling irritated?
It just is what it is.
And by accepting that every day
and doing what i need to change it.
It WILL become what I make it.
I look forward to seeing good changes in my life. :)
So What DID I eat tonight?
Well ....
I remembered that I had some Grass Fed Beef Hot dogs left in the freezer.
mmMMMMmmm
That put a little Tigger spring back in my step.
I peeled and sliced thin a white sweet potato
melted some butter on the slices and broiled them in the oven.
Yum.
I am going to enjoy this.